I'm ALIVE! Muahahahahahahahahahah!
Ahem.
Sorry about that! u__u Overpowering social life + homework + evil parents + sleepiness and lack of enthusiasm = internet absence.
But I'm back now, and I'm going to try to visit here as much as I can. I haven't drawn anything lately...so I don't really have anything to put on here right now. I did a poem for English class a few weeks ago and it won "submission of the week" for my school's poetry/art club thing...I'll probably put it up soon!

I'm really tired right now...this isn't much of a journal entry <__< But peace out!

Please don't be offended if I don't answer your comments right away or browse your galleries...I haven't had much time to be on here, and when I get the chance, I've been distracted anyway. I'll try to get to those things when I can!
I've been really anxious about school starting in two weeks. My mind has been...WOOSH. @_@ Today was class registration day. I got my schedule, and I don't have any friends in my classes...oh well. I also got my pic taken XD I hope it turns out.

Also, I've been trying to come up with a drawing, but for some reason NOTHING is turning out how I want it to. Its like..."artist's block," right? I have gotten so frustrated, and every time I pick up the pencil and paper I get in a bad mood. -.-

Once school starts again, I won't have time to use the internet, barely....only a little while on weekends, and if I am lucky, during the evening. With my sister gone at college, I'll have a better chance of utilizing the computer, though.

Hm...I got a new pet last week! It's a beta. For those of you that do not know of what a beta is, it is a breed of fish...it's also known as a chinese fighting fish. They are aggressive and you can only have one, by itself in a small tank thingy. I bought a beta kit..lol it came with the little tank, some gravel, a plastic plant, and the food. My beta is red with tiny irridescent blue-green spots all over it....and it has white streaks on its fins. But overall, it's red! I named him Rosso, which means 'red' in Italian. He is named after Rosso the Crimson, one of the evil Deepground people from FFVII: Dirge of Cerberus.

I changed my icon on here! If you were wondering who it is, it's Utada Hikaru. She is a J-Pop singer and she sings Simple and Clean/Passion (Sanctuary) from the KH series...most people know that though!

Agh...I'm so anxious right now. I think I'm gonna eat some chocolate pudding and try to draw again XD

My excuse? "everyone else was doin' it!" >.< lol

Here we goooo...

1. Last cigarette:
I don't smoke!

2. Last beverage:
Chocolate milk

3. Last phone call:
Ummmm....my mom? lol!

4. Last text message:
Mike E. X____X

5. Last CD played:
voyage sans retour ~ MALICE MIZER

6. Last bubble bath:
i had a bath yesterday, but I didn't have bubbles...XD

7. Last time you cried:
Last night

8. Last meal:
I still have to eat today, so yesterday....I had a TV dinner. It was like...one of those Michelina's ones! Mm. Chicken Alfredo Florentine.

[[Eight Have You’s]]

1. Have you ever gone out with someone twice?
I COULD have, but I chose not to.

2. Have you ever been cheated on?
No! And if I ever have a guy that cheats on me, he can say "goodbye" to his male parts! MUAHAHAHA!

3. Have you ever bought condoms?
XD Once, for a joke. My friends and I were wondering (this was about 2 years ago) if the lady at the store would actually allow us to buy them, and....she did. I heard it's a law that they have to let you buy them. And then, instead of throwing them away, my friend said "someone should keep them safe!" and I was like 0_o so what happened? I ended up keeping them in my closet. So, a week or so later, my mom was looking for something in my closet, and she found them. I explained to her why I had them. It was embarrassing.

4. Have you ever kissed someone & regreted it?
Gawd, yes.

5. Have you ever fallen in love?
Um...no. Infatuated, yes.

6. Have you ever lost someone?
My kitty cat..! R.I.P., Muffy! [??? - November, 2005] <---right before my birthday. I don't remember the date though..

7. Have you ever been depressed?
*sighs* I don't know if I've been clinically depressed, but I sure have felt like it.

8. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up?
No! I've never drank.

Name 6 things you did in the past seven days
1. Went to Haley's house with Kat and David
2. Got a hair cut/trim that i hated at first but it's starting to look how it always does again ^.^;
3. Went to piano lesson
4. Went online...
5. Played some more piano
6. Got a cavity drilled. First in like...10 years.

List 3 people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. My Mommy
2. HB!
3. Haley/Kat

List 3 favorite colours
1. Pink
2. Black (it is a shade, I know...)
3. White/Silver (more neutrals!)

[[SO FAR IN 07′]]

Been to school:
Yep

Made a new friend:
Yep!

Fallen out of love:
Noooo...

Done something you swore never to do:
I think?

Laughed until you cried:
No..?

Went behind your parents back:
Sort of

Met someone who changed your life:
lol no...doesn't that usually only happen in movies or reality shows?

Gotten close to someone:
Yep!

Found out who your true friends were:
Yes, pretty much

[[WHAT DO YOU THINK OF]]

1. Bush?
George Dubya Bushwack....you SUCK!

2. Gay Marriage?
It should be legal everywhere! Bible-thumpers need to just shut the f*ck up!

4. Straight, Gay, Bi?
They can love whoever they want...it isn't that big of a deal, really!

5. Do you have a crush?
Hmm...maybe!

6. Who is the best hugger that you know?
I haven't been hugged in a very long time ;___; but Phil was a pretty good hugger. His were bone-crushing, too lol. But I haven't talked to him because he went from a jock to a stoner in like a month and he was cutting himself, smoking crap, doing drugs and other stupid shit like that.

7. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Only lust at first sight. How can you love someone from looking at them? That's shallow.

8. Is there something you want to tell someone?
Yes: my heart was accidentally replaced by a baked potato. I have less than five seconds to live.

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing?
It's not a brand name. But it came from Charlotte Ruesse!

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
I don't have "top friends" because I don't have a MySpace! *room goes silent*

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends?
I don't have a "top friends" list! 0_o

12. How many people on your top friends?
0? I don't do Myspace! I was gonna make a Facebook though

13. How many kids do you want to have?
I am not worried about it now. I don't know if I want any...this world is a terrible place to live in, and school is going to be very difficult for them. But at the most, 1..or I'll adopt. Otherwise I don't know

14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
My mom, pretty much. My dad and I are...not close at all.

15. Do you wanna change your name?
Nah...well....yeah, but I wouldn't

16. What did you do for your last birthday?
Hmm...people came over lol

17. What time did you wake up today?
12:15 p.m. 0_____0 too late

18. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Umm..listening to my iPod nano

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do:
Get my driver's license!

20. Last time you saw your dad?
Yesterday night. He's never around though

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself?
My shyness! And my hair XD lol I want it LONG dammit!

22. Which hand do you like better?
My..right?

23. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing

24. Have you ever talked to Tom?
Crap....this is a MySpace survey?! ARRRGH

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause?
Ummmm....once I donated 5 dollars to my crush about 2 years ago so his band could buy a P.A. system.

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back?
Yes. TT__TT I gossip. But I only talk about someone when they deserve to be talked about behind their back.

27. Least favorite month?
August. It's so...blah. and February. March, too.

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?
*thinks* i dunno

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now?
Nobody

30. Most visited webpage?
DA! And POX! Quizilla, too...lol

31. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing?
Well...duh!

32. Coke or Pepsi?
I don't like dark soda...but..Pepsi.

33. What’s the worst day of your life?
I can't remember...I regret things all the time!

34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week?
No

35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world?
YES

This is from 's journal! I'm gonna fill it out! Hooray!


What would you rather be called?
01. Babe or baby: Either
02. Sweetie or Honey: Either
03. Darling or Sunshine: Either ^_____^ Teehee

PRESENTLY -
01. Is your hair wet? It's *damp* since I took a shower an hour ago...(I don't blow dry it completely...it's bad for yer hair!)
02. Is your cell phone right by you? I don't have one of my own. >.< I'm probably the only teenager in American that doesn't own one.

03. Do you miss someone? Yes! Various ppl.

04. Are you wearing chap stick? Noooo.

05. Are you tired? Ehhh.

06. Are you excited for tomorrow? Not especially! My summer has been boring in more ways than one.

07. Are you watching tv? No, but I can hear it in the background, too!

08. Are you wearing pajamas? Yes! A frilly black cami and Tinkerbell pants ^.^

HAVE YOU -
01. Recently done anything you regret? Probably!

02. Ever lied? Of course! But I prefer honesty

03. Ever stuck gum under a desk? XD Yes! Hahhahhaha!

05. Ever tripped over your own feet? All the time. I'm clumsy.

TODAY -
01. Have you cursed? Dammit, what is THAT supposed to mean?! XD

02. Have you yelled at someone? I've gotten irritated, but I haven't yelled today.

03. Have you gotten mad at someone? Nah

Q&A-
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: Yeah!

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: My older sister (she'll be 19 in September!)

Q: Do you want children?
A: I'm not sure. There are pros and cons to having kids, and there are pros and cons to *not* having kids.

Q: Do you smile often?
A: ^______________^

Q: Do you wish on stars?
A: Sometimes. I haven't seen the stars for awhile

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A: Most of the time I do not

Q: When did you last cry?
A: Today! *sniffles* Lucrecia...why did you have to dieeeee? Look how sad Vincent is without you TT___TT *is playing Dirge of Cerberus*

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
A: No! It looks like a boy's handwriting! >_< I'll never forget the time where I wrote something down and this cute guy saw it and he was like "a GIRL wrote this?!" T///T

Q: Are your toenails painted?
A: Yes..sort of..its chipping off! I better fix it soon.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Friendly, yet shy. It's hard to explain.

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
A: My OWN ^__^

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: Black with white and pale pink dots and designs

Q: Do you have any pets?
A: Peaches, my adorable kitteh cat.

Q: What were you doing at 6pm last night?
A: ?

Q: I can't wait until:
A: Kingdom Hearts 3 comes out! When is it coming out, anyway..?

Q: Look to your right what do you see?
A: My cat's food and water dishes.

Q: look to your left what do you see?
A: Windows covered with frilly curtains

Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A: No XD the friends I have had in my life have never done that...they just sit and stare if I'm crying.

Q: Why did you take this survey?
A: Boredom!

1. What is your best friend's Dad's name?
I don't know!

2. Have you had sex in the past 48 hours?
Like ewww! lol! @ I never have

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
Mr. Wood was kinda cute..but not really XD
Last year we got this student teacher from Japan, named Yu...he's cute, but then I found out he got drunk at a senior's party n' made out with the 18-year-old that lives down my street. X___X

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
No! I hate the public kissing thing...that should be something more private.

5. What body part do you wash first?
My legs

6. Do you have any piercings?
Um, just my ears, but I want my nose (left nostril) pierced someday.

8. Is your driveway steep?
Not really, and it is UNFINISHED! 0.o For my whole life, the end of my driveway has been made of gravel, while everyone else's is paved.

9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
Sour Cream and Onion ^__^

10. Have you ever been tied up?
Hahaha! No, but we tied my friend up with duct tape

11. What are you listening to?
The TV in da other room

12. What did you just eat?
Pizza from Rocky Roccoco's

13. Have you ever kissed more than one person in one night?
No way!

14. How many times have you been cursed at?
Um I dunno..not that often, though

15. Which shoe do you put on first?
Whichever one is closest to me, haha

16. How old are you?
16! Only 4 months until my b-day!

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar?
Nope, but my mom has been to gay bars when she used to have gay pals. It was funny because she saw our local weather channel meterologist there XD

18. Have you ever had any Friends with Benefits?
Um, no.

19. Ever laughed so hard you pissed on yourself?
*Sighs* When I was 8, and on the school bus. That was the worst thing that had ever happened to me! Or at least one of the worst things lol

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16?
Yeah, but with the wrong person. (not literally! I wasn't like "oops, sorry, I thought you were my bf! XD)

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or Froggin?
Wtf is froggin'?! 0___0 That's terrible!

22. What is the last thing you usually do before you fall asleep?
I either listen to my iPod nano, play video games, go online, or change into pajamas

23. Have you ever had a song written about you?
Yes, twice. It's odd, when I think about it.

24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets or towels again which one would you choose?
Towels! Because...well...they're towels.

25. What's your favorite drinking game?
I have never drank/played a drinking game. But when I read Memoirs of a Geisha, the Geisha played different drinking games with men and they sounded kinda fun

26. What was your childhood nickname?

Mel
Melmel (just like !)
Melly or Meli
Melonhead
Melba
The Princess of all Princesses and Queens (lol)
Gum Fairy (I ALWAYS have gum in my purse XD)
Sara (lol some kid thought my name was Sara)
Mellybean



27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?
The other day! It was fun lol

28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
0_o Yeah, I walked through it, but when there weren't any dudes inside

29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
I dunno, I haven't been driving for long. I like to zigzag the car when I'm on a road that no one uses!

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
o.o eww.

31. How do you normally eat your cookies?
Sometimes I just stuff the whole thing in my mouth or I will nibble it, or I'll dunk it in milk. ^^

33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others.
Sing! XD

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
I've never tried...hopefully I never will

37. Why are you doing this survey?
PEHHH

38. Without saying a name, who did you enjoy seeing naked the most... just state the age you were at?
0__0

39. What did you do last night?
Internet, video games.

41. Do you have any strange phobias?
Well..they aren't strange, but I am freaked out at heights and bees

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
0_o

43. How old were you when you had your first kiss?
14, 15, I dunno

45. Have you ever called your love interest by another girl/guys name?
Nope

46. Have you ever gotten caught sleeping while on a date?
No

47. Have you ever played naked twister?
lol no

48. Have you ever been drunk at work/school?
No, but I've seen people that have

50. How many Bruce's do you know?
0_o wtf is a Bruce? Bruce Wayne/Superman? Bruce the Shark?

After shopping all day I'm so tired! But I'm very bored, too. I don't really feel inspired to do anything at all...hmmm.
I haven't beat Final Fantasy XII yet! I've had it since last October. I got to the very end, where you have to go onto that massive airship that invades Rabanastre...Bahamut! That's the name. But there is a scratch on my disc that freezes one of the scenes, and I can't proceed...I should take it to CD Max and have them get the scratch out. But I was too lazy, so I started a new game a week or so ago. I'm at the Stilshrine of Mirriam! TIME TO KILL SOME ZOMBIES! Yeahahahah!


I stole this from 's journal entry. ^_^

IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

Opening Credits:
Theme of the Empire [Final Fantasy XII]
(Perfect lol....it's such a powerful, majestic song.)

Waking Up:
Time for a Rest [Final Fantasy XII]
(If I'm waking up..it shouldn't be time for a frickin' rest...lol! But it works.)

First Day At School:
Keeper of Time [Final Fantasy IX]
(The first day of school is mysterious I guess lol.....)

Childhood:
Transylvania by MALICE MIZER
(I AM a vampire, you know. :wink

Falling In Love:
Regret by MALICE MIZER
(maybe I regretted falling in love? o.o aww. The melody works though.)

Fight Song:
Those Who Fight [Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children version]
(Excellent! ^_^ I'm also learning this song for piano write now lol)

Breaking Up:
Beatrix's Theme [Final Fantasy IX]
(It certainly is dramatic.)

Prom:
Waltz for the Moon [Final Fantasy VIII]
(Ahhh..the famous Squall and Rinoa dance scene. I guess it could work for prom)

Life:
Signs of Change [Final Fantasy XII]
(Yes, it does work...after all, I've changed many times throughout my life.)

College:
Aeris' Theme [Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children Version]
(I guess it could be a sad time...I'll miss my friends and my family TT__TT)

High School:
Call Me by Blondie
(It works...lol *Call me! Oh love, you can call me any day or night..call me..*)

Mental Breakdown:
Baby Britain by Elliott Smith
(The song is upbeat, but the lyrics are about a drunk. 0_o)

Driving:
Sorrow (Liberation Army Version) [Final Fantasy XII]
(Final Fantasy XII has like...taken over my ipod nano XD)

Flashback:
Terra [Final Fantasy IX]
(it's all mystical-like..so sure.)

Getting Back Together:
Quiet Determination [Final Fantasy XII]
(determined to get back together! or something lol)

Wedding:
Tell Me [Final Fantasy VIII]
(*sigh* romance.)

Birth of Child:
The Promise We Exchanged in the Dead of Night by MALICE MIZER
(Another vampire-esque song...very classical sounding! Maybe I'm having a vampire child.)

Final Battle:
Yami ni Chiru Sakura (Cherry Blossoms Scattered in the Darkness) by alice nine.
(Sure! Haha. There's heavy guitar and screaming throughout.)

Death Scene:
Into a Storm not Memorized [Star Ocean 3: Till the End of Time]
(it's a solemn song u.u)

Funeral Song:
Fallen Leaves (flute) [Star Ocean 3: Till the End of Time]
(Sure lol)

End Credits:
Memory Lane by Elliott Smith
(it's upbeat. hopefully the ending was a happy one ^-^)